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It seems that I am attracted and repulsed at the same time when it comes to women. Outwardly I am attracted to beauty just like any other man and usually it's enough for men to fuck her. There are so many things that turn me off about women my age. Bisexuality, drug usage, alcohol abuse, lack of moral convictions, mental instability, lack of respect for one's body, exposing too much skin, and any underlying psychological issues that would keep me from enjoying her company.

Most men can shut these things off and do the deed with anyone, even amputees and morbidly obese women, but I am incapable of this. I like to look at women but I don't appreciate their supposed "free spirits" (another word for floozie, slut, and promiscuous), I don't appreciate women that don't appreciate themselves. This has some Satanic merit in the realm of "self love". How am I supposed to be attracted to someone with so many negative qualities? How am I supposed to be attracted to someone that has no love for themselves?

We live in a world where women are slowly losing not only respect for themselves, but are losing respect for men. I can see why. Men are just as fucked up as women are. I'm slowly losing hope in humanity, and losing hope that future families will actually raise respectable women. I wasn't the most respectable man in the past, but I learn from my mistakes and turn them into good things. Everyone around me is losing touch with what makes people respectable and decent human beings. No one respects people that don't respect themselves...

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srry for the vagueness on that statement dw, i had a whole diatribe explaing that, but unfortunetly i was on a cell and accidently erased it and didnt feel like doing all that typing all over again. lol any way when i said that women are self loathing and desperate for attention i was refering to alot of their willingness to lay and spread to accomadate just about any prick, just so they can feel special and worthwhile, instead of feeling those things for themselves from within their selves. women should be treated like goddesses and men like kings, but discernment is the key. not every man and woman deserve to be treated as such. as for the dispicable part, suffice it to say that i see alot of dispicable qaulities in alot of people. only a few are far from being dispicable. it's the reality of it along with my misanthropy, which comes from an awareness of the reality of the situation.
Six, I am not going to pin point you with this statement, but it is aimed at a generalization of sorts.

When it boils down to either side of the sexual fence decides to downgrade women, it comes off as a display of personal shortcomings of the individual making the statement. When a woman downgrades her "sisters", it is usually out of petty jealously. She is either physically unattractive, emotionally unattractive or mentally unattractive. She can't "compete" in the mating game, and therefore turns to whining. Yup, that always works at winning a quality mate. The squeaky wheel doesn't always get the oil.

When it comes to men, it can be due to the same unattractive reasons, but more times it is because of a lack of self esteem and self confidence. Can't land that hottie at the local club for the last 10 months, but have seen every other guy "turn the door knob"...some of which were some ugly ass dudes? Correct me if I am wrong, but women aren't just attracted to a good looking guy, but a confident guy. I am willing to bet that if you took a "Stud" and had him compete with a very confident "Average" guy, the confident average guy would win out.

Now yes, some people are just overly picky and have to high of standards that 99.9% of all women will NEVER stand up to. In this case, one has to re-evaluate their standards and determine if they are realistic or not. Sometimes, it is holding themselves to to high of standards, and take out their own flaws on those they are attracted to. Either way, it can be based on individualistic shortcomings.

Amazing how we can take our own faults and turn them around to be blamed on others.
I can't remember the persons name before me but I've already admitted that my morals and ethics are a mixture of xtian and satanic. I don't classify myself as a "Satanist", and like I've stated in previous threads I'm often times disgusted to call myself a Satanist, or at least was disgusted, because most of you are too wishy washy. You hold no solid ground. I have a theory, "If you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything." Do you see where I'm going with this or do you need me to spell it out? I'm solid in my stance that I do not, nor have I ever appreciated or respected sluts. The fact that women treat themselves as objects for men's attention and temporary gratification does not speak highly of a woman's character. I admire women like my mom, women who wait numerous months of dating to let someone experience that part of themselves. You let your TV dictate how you're supposed to act when your twenty, I learn from respectable people how they operate and what sets them apart from those of you obsessed with sex. And as far as I'm concerned most stereotypical men are quick to leave the pretty face in a sea of pretty faces replies like "Never change Ana, cuz I'd hit that!" I know what you're up to gentleman, don't think I'm oblivious to your antics ;)

So we can kiss Ana's ass, or those of us that are not ruled by sexual desire can hold strong opinions of what these actions mean psychologically. That's right, it's not only a tested theory, but also an opinion to those of you that don't have the luxury of hanging out with psychotherapists and PHD's in the pyche field. I hold a strong opinion because I think women are lowering themselves to the lowest common denominator of man. I think it should be through a kind of meticulous screening process whether one should be ALLOWED to be intimate with me. If you are ranking high on the human scumometer, then no chance in hell. If you rank high on my list of people I respect more than I find disgusting then yes! YES YES YES YES!!! I have lots of love for people I respect, but I'm not an equal opportunity lover. I am a catch and women would be lucky to have me.

So lets move onto my psychological reasonings. Yes I'm insecure. Yes I lack confidence. I'm okay with this, and to top it off I'm still socially fucked up from prison. These are all things I work on every goddamned day of my life. This is what separates me from the masses, most people live in a constant state of complacency and refuse to do self help work to make them better people. I am in phenomenal shape and I'm not ugly, so this is not a matter of being attractive enough for women, I get looks ;) And yes, I can't hack it in the dating pool because of 2 reasons. 1) women often times don't meet my expectations to begin with so it's a waste of time and effort to pursue a woman I've deemed worthless. 2) I don't have the gift of gab and I don't play high school games. The ugliest man in the world can land a hottie as long as he can talk and is confident.

I was a slut for a period of time and so when I see this behavior, I call it for what it is. Weakness. True tests of strength come from holding out for something worthwhile. I have a hard time explaining these principles to weak willed people that "need to take the edge off life." Just because you can do something doesn't mean you should. Do yourself a favor and show some decency...
Ana, I keep singling you out. These things I'm saying really apply to most stereotypical women. It's not meant as an attack against you, just a very non-PC observation based on the information you've provided. Again I feel the need to apologize in advance. No offense meant, just calling people on their shit.
Oh, Six, sweetie, you have no need to apologise for a thing. I do think you are obsessing with me though!

Anyway, I’m a little disappointed, I have to say. I thought we had achieved a kind of closure on this, you and I; seemingly not. You’ve read my words, yes, but you have not understood my words: you have not understood me. I can assure you I am as far from being stereotypical as it is possible to get! You have never met anyone like me; you are never likely to meet anyone like me. Only people of the highest possible standard get to kiss my arse!

The question now is have I ever met anyone like you? No, never, and if I did I would stand back; but I understand you, truly I do; I see inside you, far deeper than you can ever have expected or imagined. I know you were hurt by what I wrote before; I know I cut deep. You are forcing me to cut even deeper, against my better judgement. I’ll try to make this as clean and as surgically precise as I can.

Mister Six, it’s not a palace of windows you are living in; it’s a palace of mirrors. That’s not the outside world you can see; it’s yourself. You are effectively blind to what life is and what people are; you generalise because that’s the only way your imagination can cope, the only way it can reach beyond the prison of mirrors.

More than anything you are blind to what you truly are. Your narcissism, your obsession with your body, your obsession with yourself does not betoken a positive self-image. It betokens the most profound forms of doubt, not so much insecurity as self-loathing. Something bad has happened to you, something really bad, and I don’t just mean prison. It’s not women you hate because there is no such thing as a woman in the manner you conceive; that’s just a way of giving shape and direction to feelings barely understood. It’s yourself.

I’m sorry; I know this is getting far too uncomfortable, both for you and for me. There is more that I could say, but I think it best that I stop now.

I would like to help you but I suspect you may be beyond that kind of help and insight that I can offer, anyone in this form of network can offer. What worries me is that your life is bleeding away. True life is about experience, meaningful experience, experience with and through other people; family, friends, lovers, all sorts of people, with all sorts of talents and all manner of imperfections. You will wake up one day understanding that you have been in pursuit not of experience or perfection but of a chimera, a tragic illusion. The perfect body, your bogus ideal, will no longer matter, because it will go with so much else. You will awake one day to discover that you have wasted your life in negativity and self-hatred. All that will be left will be the deepest forms of regret.
I love ana for she is my sister! A pack of wolves looks out for one another! I'd love to kiss my little sister ana's ass (in a non-diragatory way).. I DON'T kiss NO ONES ass (suck up to people). I agree 100% with Ana. Mister Six you wanna give your opinions OK! You have every right too! But personally to my knowledge you have offended my little sister Ana in whitch I look out for the members of my pack (Most of my Brothers/Sisters here)! Now I know we DON'T have to agree with everyone on ANY topic or opinion etc etc etc. But we SHOULD handle it in a MATURE way! I DON'T expect any of us to agree on the same thing but we should atleast handle it in a MATURE way! We are NOT a flock of sheep! We are a PACK OF WOLVES! Wolves argue with each other and soforth but they do it in a mature manner! Now I'm aware that you've been to prison (for whatever reason I can careless)! Maybe prison did fuck you up alittle but whos fault is that? I stand up for what I believe in and i believe women have EVERY right to dress, act, and do whatever that pleases them as the same thing goes for men as well. Personally I DON'T CARE what women wear or whatever they do same thing for other men. Thats their buisness. I think its GREAT that a women wants to dress and show off her body in a way that she feels confortable! As for drugs well thats one's OWN personal choice and I think it's great to experiment with anything as long as you are FULLY AWARE of the consequences! I know I've offended quite a bit of people here awhile back. When I posted the racial pride issue but after awhile my black flame made me realize that we are ALL animals and we are ALL the same species! I judge someone on how they act (Merit) instead of their racial, national backround/origin etc etc etc! We are make mistakes and we learn from them. My Innber Black Flame helped me realize that NOT to judge someone on how what their backround/origin may be BUT by their Merit and how they act! I never got the chance to say this so I'm gonna say it now I apologize to those that I've offended in the past! I'm an equal opportunity hater! Btw When I say how a person acts I'm refering to the people that respect me and in turn I respect them back! Same thing goes for if a person disrespects me then they should expect to be disrespected back! I DON'T CARE how one chooses to live their lifestyle or what they do to their bodies and soforth. Thats THEIR decission and their decission ALONE! If someone choose to be a prostitute (I'm NOT refering to anyone here!) then go for it! It's YOUR life live the way YOU want choose! No one can tell someone how to live their OWN life! Mister Six from looking at your comments and soforth I am gonna judge you and say that you a *SHEEP* in wolves clothing! PLAIN AND SIMPLE! *Kindness to those that deserve it instead of love wasted on ingrates*. I'm a Satanist and I'm VERY PROUD of that! I was born a Satanist and I'm gonna die a Satanist! (like I said in the other forum (death is NOT a goal to me nor is it something to look forward too)! I love life and cherish EVERY moment I have here on earth. *Life is the GREAT indulgeance Death the GREAT abstinance for that reason make the MOST of Life HERE AND NOW!*. I'd also like to say one more thing that I love my my Brothers/Sisters and I wll look out for them b/c I know that they are intellegent and open minded like myself. Mister Six as for you SERIOUSLY idk about you!
Thank you, my brother, thank you for your gallant defence. But I assure you I was not offended. I suppose that sounds a bit phoney in the sense that the lady doth protest too much; but it also happens to be true. :-))
I love you my younger sister!
For me, when I chose my husband it was just a set of simple criteria
1)loves animals and will take care of them.
2)Wants children (although now that I look at the finances and the sex drive that seems less likely)
3)not bossy (but he is overprotective and that still bothers me)
4)Someone with the potential to make a lot of money

And, yes, I did over look all the mental instability and moodiness. I got a man who came home every night and ranted about work related issues. I think I was also quite disappointed by what the money of his profession actually bought (not very much). I also got a man who was more of the committed loyal type, rather than as you put it, the slut. In the end it means he won't be leaving me and that he is devoted to me in spite of his other flaws. I also admit to not having much of a sex drive. For a while I felt guilty about not wanting it, but then I decided that was really unsatanic of me. If I don't want something, why should I have to pretend that I do?
Another thing, both of us were outwardly Roman Catholic when we went into the marriage, and I felt that it would be good to be part of a community and belong to a tradition even if I didn't feel I got anything from it on the inside. A few years of marriage changed my stance on that as well. I realized that you can't be a sheep following along and expect to get what you want out of life. Also that there was no need to do a bunch of ritual that worked the opposite of how I wanted it to work.
I do place a high priority of being who I am rather than some painted up picture how someone else wants me to be.
I appreciate the responses everyone! Ana, I've been thinking about a reply for days now and I just don't have anything good to say and I don't feel like stirring the shit so I guess I'll just let that little argument die, along with this thread.

Lori, I appreciate your comment except for one little thing. Love should never be based on how much money your man makes. Poor people all over the world start families and take care of them. Women that care how much dough their man makes are leeches, you should focus on making yourself rich instead of leeching off of him. Now if you want kids, don't think that you can't do it because he doesn't make enough because what are you bringing to the table? A man with money can get any woman he wants so you kinda need to stick out in some way. Are you a "trophy" wife? Do you have big tits and blonde hair? What makes you think that a man is gonna pave your road with gold? I think you suffer from a princess complex. Your materialism makes me ill, sorry it does and I have to speak my mind.
I just asked my female room mate what she thought and she said it very simply. Financial discipline. Meaning as long as he can handle his money, and can pay his own bills, that is all that matters to her. The amount of money wasn't even considered. Lori, I realize that your reasons for doing things are going to be different than mine, but you are throwing out the possibility of meeting an amazing man due to his finances. It's honestly none of your business how much a man makes, just as it's none of his business how much you make. Potential is nice, but even a standard as simple as Being Educated should suffice. I wish you the best of luck in finding your money hungry man, love is so much deeper than that :( You made me sad Lori because I'm poor, and I would hate to hear a woman say you don't make enough money so I'm not gonna date you. I fucking hate america and materialism :(
I'm so glad you've come up for air. :-)

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