It seems that I am attracted and repulsed at the same time when it comes to women. Outwardly I am attracted to beauty just like any other man and usually it's enough for men to fuck her. There are so many things that turn me off about women my age. Bisexuality, drug usage, alcohol abuse, lack of moral convictions, mental instability, lack of respect for one's body, exposing too much skin, and any underlying psychological issues that would keep me from enjoying her company.
Most men can shut these things off and do the deed with anyone, even amputees and morbidly obese women, but I am incapable of this. I like to look at women but I don't appreciate their supposed "free spirits" (another word for floozie, slut, and promiscuous), I don't appreciate women that don't appreciate themselves. This has some Satanic merit in the realm of "self love". How am I supposed to be attracted to someone with so many negative qualities? How am I supposed to be attracted to someone that has no love for themselves?
We live in a world where women are slowly losing not only respect for themselves, but are losing respect for men. I can see why. Men are just as fucked up as women are. I'm slowly losing hope in humanity, and losing hope that future families will actually raise respectable women. I wasn't the most respectable man in the past, but I learn from my mistakes and turn them into good things. Everyone around me is losing touch with what makes people respectable and decent human beings. No one respects people that don't respect themselves...
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